[It's a quiet request. He doesn't really think Ronan was planning to leave, but - he wants to be clear, he wants Ronan to know that he's wanted. Needed, maybe. Adam thinks he'll be able to sleep, or at least to drift off into something like sleep, but he doesn't want to wake to find Ronan gone.
Gansey's gone, now, disappeared between one moment and the next. Adam knows that keeping Ronan near him won't keep him from disappearing, but right now it's what he needs. Ronan going home would never be easy for him to deal with, but he's clearheaded enough to know that he's not in a very good place right now, and the idea of losing Ronan makes him feel like all the air is being leeched out of the room.
The warm presence of Ronan is keeping him stable, more than anything else right now. Cabeswater is there if he reaches for it, but Cabeswater can't bring back his hand, and he'll only have to come back to his body sooner or later anyway. He can take comfort from the sounds of leaves in a breeze, but even more from the movement of Ronan's lips against his skin. They're still here. They're together. He'll make a deal - he'll do something to fix this. When he can.
Maybe he will be able to sleep, or maybe he'll just listen to Ronan breathe until he finds a little bit of peace. Does it really matter? Is there any difference?]
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[It's a quiet request. He doesn't really think Ronan was planning to leave, but - he wants to be clear, he wants Ronan to know that he's wanted. Needed, maybe. Adam thinks he'll be able to sleep, or at least to drift off into something like sleep, but he doesn't want to wake to find Ronan gone.
Gansey's gone, now, disappeared between one moment and the next. Adam knows that keeping Ronan near him won't keep him from disappearing, but right now it's what he needs. Ronan going home would never be easy for him to deal with, but he's clearheaded enough to know that he's not in a very good place right now, and the idea of losing Ronan makes him feel like all the air is being leeched out of the room.
The warm presence of Ronan is keeping him stable, more than anything else right now. Cabeswater is there if he reaches for it, but Cabeswater can't bring back his hand, and he'll only have to come back to his body sooner or later anyway. He can take comfort from the sounds of leaves in a breeze, but even more from the movement of Ronan's lips against his skin. They're still here. They're together. He'll make a deal - he'll do something to fix this. When he can.
Maybe he will be able to sleep, or maybe he'll just listen to Ronan breathe until he finds a little bit of peace. Does it really matter? Is there any difference?]