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He would have lived if he left the ley line alone.

Yes. But he also would have lived if I had saved him. I don't regret it, Noah, but it's still on me.

He would have tried to hurt you all again if he lived. Might have succeeded that time.

[It's hard, over text, to get across the certainty that Noah has with that. The certainty that comes from being able to see the curve of time patterned out before you and behind you, familiar steps to be retraced over and over again. If Whelk had left well enough alone, he would have lived. Leaving well enough alone was not in the nature of Barrington Whelk. Noah knows this as part of the Henrietta ley line as well as someone who had the best friend ability of knowing Whelk better than he knew himself.]

Anyway. If you want it to be on you, okay. Thank you, then.

It's better that he's dead. It's what he deserved, not for us but for what he did to you.

[That doesn't make it okay, not really, doesn't mean there isn't a human's death on Adam's shoulders. It just makes it right. Fair. Just, maybe, the justice of nature.]

You don't need to thank me. I don't remember most of it.

I do.

[Remember it, what he was there for (unseen, voiceless, murdered murdered murdered remembered). Needing to thank Adam.]

I couldn't do it or ask for it, but it was needed. So thank you.