[Adam looks down at his hands, playing with the fork. He knows that Ronan cares about him, even if it's hard to understand why. He knows it's rather miraculous that he, of all people, is the one Ronan wants. What he's afraid of is not being able to return that the way Ronan deserves. Being too distant, too quiet, too angry. What is love supposed to look like, really? How is it supposed to feel?

The jury's still out on whether it even exists, but Adam knows that, if nothing else, he cares deeply for Ronan - for all of his friends, what few there are. That's why he's so afraid.]

I know. I'm going to try.

[Part of the problem, actually, is that it does seem easy. He likes Ronan, Ronan likes him. He wants Ronan, Ronan wants him. It would be the easiest thing in the world to just go along with it. But Adam doesn't trust anything that seems so easy, especially when he knows what a walking time bomb he can be, especially when he wants so much to keep from hurting Ronan.]

I don't want to put this on your shoulders, Gansey. I - it's good to have someone to talk to, but I don't want you to feel responsible for anything that might happen. If I mess this up. I just wanted you to know that I talked to him.

[Because he did promise, after all.]