[He runs his thumb across the back of Ronan's hand, gentle.]
I wanted you, but I was afraid.
[It's simple and plain, the only true explanation. He wanted Ronan so badly, but was afraid of so many things. Of hurting Ronan, mostly. But he hasn't yet, and even now when they've fought they manage to come back together whole. He remembers his fears, and he still worries about some of those things now, but the knowledge that they kept him from this for so long - well.]
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I wanted you, but I was afraid.
[It's simple and plain, the only true explanation. He wanted Ronan so badly, but was afraid of so many things. Of hurting Ronan, mostly. But he hasn't yet, and even now when they've fought they manage to come back together whole. He remembers his fears, and he still worries about some of those things now, but the knowledge that they kept him from this for so long - well.]
It seems so stupid now.