[Ronan doesn't interrupt when Adam sets the bowl on the nightstand, though he does quietly make sure that it's not about to tip over, prepared to jump up if Adam starts to lose balance or drop it. Luckily, neither of those things happen, and Ronan is blindsided by the following question, and so he doesn't respond right away.
The list of things that aren't alright are a mile high, and even then Ronan knows that he's got nothing on the shit that Adam is going through. Losing Gansey, feeling guilty is one thing, but losing Gansey, losing a hand, losing- all of this- it has to be worse.
He doesn't know what a good response to this is. If he's honest, he's not sure he'll be able to stop, and an emotional explosion is the last thing that Adam needs. If he lies- well, he doesn't lie. So in the end, Ronan just swallows hard and shrugs halfheartedly before refocusing, looking back up toward Adam with the same sort of raw intensity that he approaches everything with.]
I still have you.
[His fingers lift and he reaches out, sliding his hand delicately along Adam's cheek, his thumb brushing the soft skin over his cheekbone.]
You still have me.
[That's maybe the last saving grace about this whole thing. Ronan isn't so insecure as to think that Adam could fully cast him aside after this, not when they've been through so much- but he knows that he has a long way to go before he can forgive himself. But the bottom line is that they're both still here, and as long as that remains a constant, then there's still some semblance of hope and some possibility of happiness somewhere in the future.]
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The list of things that aren't alright are a mile high, and even then Ronan knows that he's got nothing on the shit that Adam is going through. Losing Gansey, feeling guilty is one thing, but losing Gansey, losing a hand, losing- all of this- it has to be worse.
He doesn't know what a good response to this is. If he's honest, he's not sure he'll be able to stop, and an emotional explosion is the last thing that Adam needs. If he lies- well, he doesn't lie. So in the end, Ronan just swallows hard and shrugs halfheartedly before refocusing, looking back up toward Adam with the same sort of raw intensity that he approaches everything with.]
I still have you.
[His fingers lift and he reaches out, sliding his hand delicately along Adam's cheek, his thumb brushing the soft skin over his cheekbone.]
You still have me.
[That's maybe the last saving grace about this whole thing. Ronan isn't so insecure as to think that Adam could fully cast him aside after this, not when they've been through so much- but he knows that he has a long way to go before he can forgive himself. But the bottom line is that they're both still here, and as long as that remains a constant, then there's still some semblance of hope and some possibility of happiness somewhere in the future.]
We'll survive this.