If what we do has no effect on us in the end - we're real now, but we won't always be.
[It's a complicated thought, confused and tangled as Adam's often are, and he's not sure he can explain it properly. It's not necessarily a bad thing, though. It means the pain they experience won't always be real, either. He'll go home eventually, and he won't remember Gansey spitting up blood and seizing and dying in front of him.
Not that that means Gansey will be safe at home. Adam knows that far too well.]
I feel enough like me that I can't doubt I am. And I agree, mostly. What we do here matters even if it isn't real in the end.
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[It's a complicated thought, confused and tangled as Adam's often are, and he's not sure he can explain it properly. It's not necessarily a bad thing, though. It means the pain they experience won't always be real, either. He'll go home eventually, and he won't remember Gansey spitting up blood and seizing and dying in front of him.
Not that that means Gansey will be safe at home. Adam knows that far too well.]
I feel enough like me that I can't doubt I am. And I agree, mostly. What we do here matters even if it isn't real in the end.