If you want to be a burden so badly, at least admit that it was my choice to take it on. None of you belong to me, but together we're something that's more than the sum of its parts, me included.
All I want is for you to see that I need you at least as much as you need me. Coming to me when things are bad doesn't mean you aren't your own person. Just a person with friends.
[there's a pause between those messages and the next. he doesn't know if he should tell adam this. adam understands a lot, but he doesn't understand dying the way noah and gansey do. he hasn't done it before. gansey died not doubting he would return, because the concept of anything else was unthinkable.]
I don't remember it. Dying. Ronan had my hand and I think you did too, and Noah's hand was cold on my head and that felt nice. I told you I wasn't afraid. My brain felt weird, like there were sparks in it. And then nothing, just waking up on that table.
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All I want is for you to see that I need you at least as much as you need me. Coming to me when things are bad doesn't mean you aren't your own person. Just a person with friends.
[there's a pause between those messages and the next. he doesn't know if he should tell adam this. adam understands a lot, but he doesn't understand dying the way noah and gansey do. he hasn't done it before. gansey died not doubting he would return, because the concept of anything else was unthinkable.]
I don't remember it. Dying. Ronan had my hand and I think you did too, and Noah's hand was cold on my head and that felt nice. I told you I wasn't afraid. My brain felt weird, like there were sparks in it. And then nothing, just waking up on that table.